Family choas

Someone must turn around
I'm pounding as i reach the ground
I can't hear a sound
past the crown that drowned
the round thing that surround
the wounded to be found

A girl will pigtails will say

" what can i say i like pickled hey"

a dog that breaths in and out
a dripping sound that came from a leaking spout
I sit here with non ending doubt

a pain went up my side
was I about to die?
I sigh
my mouth was dry
so i picked up a water bottle
with my right side
hand laid it on my lips to take a drink
and i thought

I need to think about whats going on in my life

my cousin got married instead of eloped
my other cousin divorced what hope
my youngest cousin got pregnant Wat a sap
she now has a baby on her lap
she acts like a brat cause she's 16 that's crap

my guy cuz tried to talk to her about adoption so hey

she didn't want to what the hey

she has no money no job and still in high school
and the thing is my aunt said y cousin needs to be out by 18
she has no where to go

one of my older cousin and her husband cheated on each wow who knew?
I know who God that's who.

I'm still getting over when she ignored us til 2004
its like my cousin walked out the door for years
and came back for more when my grandma and grandpa
were dead on the bed floor.

She thinks the kids are fine with them being divorce
that's a fricken lie
wow this actually makes me want to cry.

I sit here on the couch and lie
I want to die emotionally
rot and lie and cry til i fall apart.

God I need you
more then I know
please help me
I'm suffering you know

Its like I'm in the middle of this chaos maybe the second layer
or third
And I can't do anything about it
cause i can't do anything about it

makes me wanna cry
i lie as i cry inside and
the outside.

Spring Break

Hey everyone
Spring Break is coming soon. I am going to take a trip to Chicago and check out downtown Chicago, the museums and Woodfield mall. I am so excited to spend time with my family. Please send me comments and I love to hear about ur spring break too! don't be shy!